January 2012
Happy mew year!! :D
And the thing is:
I know of other women who look like me. I don’t think they’re ugly at all. So I shouldn’t be surprised by this. And the only people who have told me straight up that I was ugly, repulsive, etc. were those shithead anons from a few days back.
So I should really, really stop being surprised that my partners (and various other admirers) want to do me. I mean, hell, I’d do me.
My self-loathing is... spotty.
Most of the time, I think I look ugly, and I can’t stand to see myself. But there are times when I see myself in the mirror, or in pictures, and I’m like, “Damn, I’m hot as shit.”
I’m sure my partners (and various other admirers) would simply tell me that I’m seeing myself accurately in those moments. I’m trying to believe that.
HI SATAH
poisonpassion80 replied to your post: Okay so
If resting or changing the batteries don’t work, you may need a new mouse. :(
Yeah, that’s what I was afraid of. The good news is that I think I do have some other mice lying around somewhere…
Okay so
My wireless mouse buttons keep acting weird. Sometimes a button press doesn’t register; even worse, sometimes it does register but the release doesn’t, meaning that my computer thinks I’m dragging when I really meant to just click. This makes computer use extremely frustrating, as you might imagine. Suggestions?
December 2011
There is lots of New Year's nudity on my dash.
Mind you, I am not complaining in the slightest.
“”People often say that ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder,’ and I say that...”
– Salma Hayek (via overcomingatelophobia)
and, okay, since i re-opened my own can of worms...
swell138:
isabelthespy:
the thing that is killing me most about it is what MMM was saying here — what would happen if institutions, universities, governments looked at everyone who had committed sexual violence (never mind OTHER kinds of violence) and said, DEALBREAKER, SHUT IT DOWN! seriously. what would happen to them? what would that world look like?
what would happen if victims knew they...
milkeemountainmama:
here’s the other thing. do you see the difference between:
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah, oh, and btw, you should be checking out what woc have to say cuz they said it first—
AND—
this is what angela davis says, and then this is what alexis pauline gumbs says, but then this is Leah Lakshimi Piepzna-Samarasinha says—and then this what INCITE! says, but then i was...
My 2011
Stuff that happened this year:
I went full-time! Changed my name, came out at work and school and everywhere, and now everybody (who’s not an ass) recognizes that I’m a lady. :D It’s super-exciting!
Started really earnestly doing local activism stuff. It’s been cool.
Tchy and Nami decided to go poly, after which Tchy became my 24/7 Dom, and we’ve remained so ever...
Well, crap.
I made food and rent (thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!) but now I need money for laundry. Here’s the silly thing: I have money for laundry, but it’s in my PayPal, and there’s no way to quickly get it out in the form I need (i.e., cash) without paying an additional couple of ATM fees.
So uhh. If somebody could toss me five bucks or so, I’d be much obliged. :)
[Talk of menstruation and cissexism]
torayot:
Hey, cis feminists, I see you:
Whinging about how you “can’t” talk about enjoying periods without being accused of transphobia
Falsely equating the “ridiculous”ness of this accusation to accusing someone of ableism for enjoying walks in the park.
I don’t know if I should, like, try to explain these ideas to you using finger puppets or Power Point slides or by writing a musical about...
thecurvature:
Prosecutors push to use forced statement in Chrishaun McDonald murder case: McDonald asserts self-defense
Minneapolis, MN - Chrishaun “CeCe” McDonald appeared in court, Dec. 5, for the first evidentiary hearing for the charges she is facing after being the target of a racist attack in June of this year. Prosecutors argued that a statement police extracted from McDonald under...
“when a white woman decides to kill her kids, does she say a gay man did it? Do...”
– Jukebox Jones (via zorascreation)
YES!!!!!
And it’s mostly white LGBT individuals who do this shit. “Gay is the New Black?” And Dan Savage with his racist bullshit attacking the black community after Prop 8 passed, trying to make it seem that the black community is more homophobic than anyone...
nuditea:
talesoftherin replied to your post: Apropos to nothing, the best thing about missing e, for me, is the fact that I can see ALL OF YOUR TAGS on my dashboard. it’s pretty glorious.
what’s wrong with short tags? or no tags at all? :(
EVERYTHINGGGGGGGG
no obviously like
people are allowed to do their own business with their tags
but missing e is the only easy way to display more than...
telegantmess asked: You ARE incorrigible, and that's why I <3 you.
Wait, actually, I think I _am_ using Missing e at...
So maybe that’s what they detected.
Still, though :/
2 tags
aaaaaaaaaaaaaah I love when he says I'm a good...
HA...
ouyangdan:
Tumblr just sent me a message saying they are going to refuse support to my account because I use Missing E.
I guess they have a hair up their butts that someone fixed shit that they can’t?
Seems so.
What’s hilarious is that I got that message even though I don’t use Missing e. I have Tumblr Savior, a “reblog yourself” script and a tag wrap script. Maybe...
My brain is being weird.
Like, hallucinations weird.
Always “fun” when this happens.
nuditea:
among other things, it seems sort of low to call missing e a “browser hack”
like the word “hack” is pretty much designed to inspire fear in people who don’t know very much about computers you know??
we call missing e an extension ’round these parts, ya jerks
Well, it wasn’t designed that way, but is sure is used that way nowadays. So yeah, Tumblr’s use of it here is...
Tumblr's Support Problem with 'Missing e'
joshishollywood:
missing-e:
As many users have observed, Tumblr has recently given users a choice to uninstall Missing e or revoke support for your account.
The reasons they give for suggesting that you uninstall Missing e are the worst-case scenario for installing browser extensions or browser modifications of any kind. However, Missing e is not a source of these kinds of problems.
At...
I take comfort in this:
That no matter how broke I get, how stressed or spoonless I get, how much opposition I get, how depressed I get, or how hard the future may seem, the fact remains that I have boobs.
^___^
House on fire.
alexandraerin:
There’s a thing I don’t get about the people who want to ignore racism to focus on classism, claiming that racism is just a tool being used to further class divisions and protect the economic inequalities that the upper classes rely upon…
Imagine your house is on fire. You’re not sure you can get out of it. Your possessions are being destroyed. Your family is in danger. You call...
You Know You're Trans* When: #1987 You spend 20...
^ Always always always. (And I’m full-time, so I only ever want to be in one “mode” anyway…)
1 tag
*snerk* (Warning: satire ahead!)
Hi. I understand you are a cisgender who identifies as female. What I want to know is, why? What makes you think you’re a woman? I mean, I don’t wanna be rude, and I totally support all you cisgenders, but it just seems obvious that your decision not to change your body doesn’t change who you REALLY are. How do you know you’re not just confused? I mean, I know this probably...
sententiola replied to your post: *headdesk*
Yeah, my most common typing mistake is using completely different words that have similar rhythms and sounds. Usually catch myself doing it though, because I type slowly with lots of pausing.
It’s SO EASY TO DO. Brains are funny.
Change the title of my donate page, to more accurately reflect what it’s currently for.
delightfully cryptic
milkeemountainmama:
another one has sided with an attempted murderer. this one doesn’t surprise me.
i’m needing, DESPERATELY NEEDING, people to remember how many of these same people road naomi wolf’s ass for defending julian assange. and how Michael Moore got called a rape apologist, and how roman polanski has been treated…
and i need people to ask themselves—is this a JOKE for *F*eminists?...
You're all wonderful, you know that?
Thanks for supporting me in all the ways you have. I know you often tell me I’m awesome, and I’m starting to believe that, but I really couldn’t do all I do without you.
You are all lovely. <3
fuck fuck fuck
I’m almost too sick to see straight, but if I don’t go to work today I don’t make rent.
Gonna try to go to work. I don’t see this ending well. :(
Help? :(
Hey everybody are you still in the spirit of...
tchy:
Because if so you should defs go leave a few dollars in Kiri’s donation box.
She’s decidedly short on funds right now and if she doesn’t get some money soon she may not be eating much at all for the next while.
Even if you can’t spare much every little bit helps, and so do reblogs.
Thank you.
So fucking pissed at myself for being back in the hole so soon. Fuck I’m sorry. :( I...
Thanks for all the encouragement today.
It was/is really helpful. :)
abellandapomegranate replied to your post: [TRIGGER WARNING FOR RAPE/DEATH THREATS AND ANTI-TRANS SLURS, I AM NOT KIDDING ABOUT THE TRIGGER WARNING FOLKS]
All us monsters get this sort of nonsense. Keep on keeping on. (L.L.)
…
Eee.
EEE.
Um HI I LOVE YOU YOU ARE GREAT AND STUFF AND uhh yeah.
(Seriously, thank you for all the wonderful stuff you wrote, and also for saying “hell...
just saying
abellandapomegranate:
You’re not “pre-everything” if you’ve already told yourself the truth. You’ve already done the hardest part.
lavender-labia replied to your post: Oh hey, rape threats in my inbox!
can anons submit? i thought they couldn’t…
In the past, I’ve had some anons use their e-mail addresses to submit. Which makes them easy to block, but doesn’t prevent them from sending submissions in the first place. :/
Anonymous asked: hmph! that anon doesn't know what zie's talking about. i have been nurturing a crush on your smoking hot self forEVER.
[TRIGGER WARNING FOR RAPE/DEATH THREATS AND...
Look, I know that I’m a bitch. I know that I have a lot of fucking nerve to proudly and aggressively and publicly do the things I do, including but not limited to:
Being trans
Being a woman
Insisting that I am a woman no matter what anyone else says
Being, by certain standards, “ugly”
Being someone that random shitheads on the internet don’t want to fuck
Fucking other...
untimelymiscalculations asked: *offershugs* ): Jerk anon.
Oh hey, rape threats in my inbox!
Another ladyblogger milestone!
*siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*
Anon is off for now, and probably forever. (Submissions are also off, because anons can and do use them to circumvent the no-anon restriction. Sorry for the inconvenience.)
youarenotyou replied to your post: oh come on. just look at the people who are telling you you’re actually attractive. they’re fugly themselves. idk who the hell is having sex with you but they’re prob visually impaired and/or desperate.
omg wtf is with these anons? did they come after you because i turned anon off? christ these people are pathetic!
No idea. I usually don’t have much of...
*headdesk*
“expecting”, not “respecting”
How is it that my typos so frequently make completely different words? What is with my brain?
dotted-line replied to your post: oh come on. just look at the people who are telling you you’re actually attractive. they’re fugly themselves. idk who the hell is having sex with you but they’re prob visually impaired and/or desperate.
Watching you rip into these anons is just making me feel so much better. I was having an off day re: my appearance and just…gah, you are so awesome. :D
Glad...
Anonymous asked: oh come on. just look at the people who are telling you you're actually attractive. they're fugly themselves. idk who the hell is having sex with you but they're prob visually impaired and/or desperate.
whatfreshhellisthis replied to your post: So I didn’t win the genetic lottery with regard to…
Frankly I can see why they all want to sex you up, so I dunno WHAT anon is on about. Different strokes I guess; some people are attracted to you, some are not, others are rude, obnoxious arseholes.
Pretty much, yep. And god y’all are making me blush. ^^;
aripinthefabricofreality replied to...
So I didn’t win the genetic lottery with regard to conventional “beauty” standards. So what? I still manage to (currently) have five partners with whom I’ve indulged in some fantastic sex, and more who have expressed the desire to do so, so I’m not really worried that my looks aren’t perfect :)
(Except when I’m depressed/dysphoric, of course. But when I...
whatfreshhellisthis replied to your post: oh my god is that really you in your icon omg hHAHAHAHAHAHAH WOW you are so unfortunate looking :(
Um RUDE and also WRONG, WOW. Kiri, you are utterly gorgeous. And also have like AMAZING HAIR, btw.
LOL, I think my hair is messy and kinda gross. But thank you anyway.
(yes there will be new hair pictures when I get my hair done)
Anonymous asked: by 'unfortunate looking' anon obviously meant that it's unfortunate for them how beautiful you are because they don't get to see your beauty in person! i know compliments don't always mean much when they come after other peoples' insults but i really was just thinking earlier today about how lovely you and your face and your tummy are. you are really really lovely. i...